A battle between reality and feeling;

I’m being watching closely, but talk is cheap. So fragile, once earned it affords tremendous freedom. The closest can betray and strangers can rescue, it’s a wild world. I’m never alone but I’m alone all the time, what do you dream for? Nightmares.
So consumed in self doubt, you drowned in your insecurities but nothing is really what it seems, is it. I’d compensate but you’d over-estimate but then there’d be nothing left to fear? We walk with our heads held high but bottom line is we walk and despite the best of intentions, sometimes things just happen. Between the sand and the stone, could you make it on your own? Your independence is non existent.
When you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember it’s only in the black of the night that you see the stars.
Don’t worry, its not loaded.

Those English kids want to play the blues so bad that they play the blues, so bad;

so, its been awhile.

went to groovin on the moo in Bendigo with Paige, Erica, Claire and kinda Charlotte and Lily haha.
was awesome.

the bands that played were Hercules In NY, My Own Enemy, Tame Imapala, Children Collide, Drones, Mammal, ART vs SCIENCE, Okkervil River, Van She, Little Birdy, Architecture In Helsiki, De La Soul, Ratatat, The Grates, Hilltop Hoods, The Living End and Muscles :D.

maybe more :s

so going by the line up in gerneal. you can tell it was great. and the people i went with made it even better. Even thoguh i nearly got raped by nevel...

great.

Good to eat a thousand words;

We'll end up like venus eventually;

Once upon a time there was a girl with eyes as deep as the ocean and a mind as powerful as the sun. She looked up and in the brick of her vision she caught his eye and mercifully his gaze moved traveling the walls of the house. The wind rolled, scattering dust; I smelt the paint on the fence, the heat in the leaves, the parked conclusion of the afternoon. Him so close, smelt of nothing but then a waft of danger rose from him; his fist, clenched tight.

He hits her, she bruises; if she shifts to ease her weight, blood rivers from her nose. His appearance is locked in the black pit of her eyes; and as she pleads for understanding, shes crumbled, she collapses; and as she lays there fallen - her skin tinted a darkened black and blue he chuckles to himself. All he can say is “your weak” and all she thinks is ‘I surrender’ .

SOUNDWAVE;

Okaaaay, so this blog is about over a month late ha. But i decided i wanted to blog about Soundwave 09' in all its glory XD. So, on the 27th of Feb Georgia, Ali and me went to soundwave in Melbourne and to sum it up in one word, amazing does it. (:

NINE INCH NAILS, ALICE IN CHAINS, BLOODHOUND GANG, LAMB OF GOD, ALKALINE TRIO,BILLY TALENT, THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS, FACE TO FACE, IN FLAMES, RIVAL SCHOOLS, ANBERLIN, UNDEROATH, THE SUBWAYS, EVERY TIME I DIE, DEVILDRIVER, FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS, FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND, LESS THAN JAKE, POISON THE WELL, MADINA LAKE, BEDOUIN SOUNDCLASH, FINCH, CHIODOS, NEW FOUND GLORY, JACK's MANNEQUIN FROM FIRST TO LAST,HELLOGOODBYE, GOLDFINGER, SAY ANYTHING,SILVERSTEIN, SAVES THE DAY, LACUNA COIL, 36 CRAZY FISTS, STRAYLIGHT RUN, EVERGREEN TERRACE, UNEARTH, BAYSIDE, EMERY, HOUSTON CALLS, THE AUDITION, ATTACK IN BLACK, INNERPARTYSYSTEM, ALL THAT REMAINS and ALESANA.

Sooooo clearly it was awesome as nuts haha. and going by that picture above somewhere I was happe as. I actually look ecstatic :|
and that was my blog of soundwave.

Theres good and bad in everything;

meet the good,

my everything.
And they've got no idea how much they really mean to me.
Sometimes there presents is all it takes.
Thankyou (:

And its true we are immune;

There’s a slight chance of sunshine on an overcast of being used for the ‘same old same old’ thing. Clarity and reality taking over her gasp as if it was her only oxygen; just say what you need to say? It seems as though it’s got nothing to do with feelings anymore, fabricated evidence that he cared, a dubious gift from the subconscious and she is ashamed to admit that ‘you look nice’ meant everything.

She does not make no big deal. But break, my heart, my darkness. I must hold my tongue I must bite my lip. How can I light up the darkness? I like the darkness. Darken the light.
I fall face first into something I can’t get my hands around. Your expectations? Keep them. And there she was – skipping over the ocean like a storm. One gasp away from a hurricane and one lightning bolt away from slitting your throat.
You found hope, you found faith?
You found out how fast one can take it away.

Who would think it would take this long to realize what was missing. The one piece of the so called puzzle that it supposed to hold you together. I’m not looking for it tomorrow but I’m not forgetting it, I’ll never forget it. My expectations aren’t held high at all, besides tomorrow never comes. Today becomes yesterday, days become weeks and weeks become years. Waiting is something I never planned on doing and I never thought I’d have to wait for this. But I will never forget it, what all made me miss out on and only through pain we find the truth of whom we really love and hate.

I’m over waiting, what’s done is done and I’m old enough to realize what really goes on behind closed doors.
No more waiting.
In cold blood I was crazed at the thought it was what I needed; now it’s the only thing I don’t want.
Your love? Keep it.
Don’t worry, its not loaded.

If only sorrow could build a staircase

Weeel, Lol?

Asumption is dangerous.

Okays, so last night i went to a party and it was out of town so a about fifteen of us car pooled inbetween two cars yeah? and of course i idiotically had to shot gun the boot.
So i was in the boot right with two other girls and it was about as toasty as it could get and we we're struggling to breath and shit - it was awesome.
we watched beached whale about eighty times.

Ohh, i forgot to mention;
Andy happened to shut the boot when i wasn't ready and look at the outcome on my eye.
Yeahh, a boot has gave me a black eyes - awesome.


Lucky i wasn't in the boot on the way home.
i could of really hated life, ahahah.

The less you know, the more you believe.

Okays, so i decided to get blogger cause Paige always talks bout it alot and considering i like writing i thought i'd give it a shot, a 2009 thing i guess.

Hello I’m Nikki (:
I’ll find the smallest things funny and what you find hilarious I won’t get. I can be entertained pre easily, i don't get bored and I think way to much, sometimes i get real excited to the point you can’t understand what I’m saying and i never really sleep - But you’re probably the same, right?.
i’m left handed, I get told lots that that means I’m going to die before you, thanks for the confidence boost (Y)

Not really one to show my feelings; but don’t get me wrong, just because I can’t show mine doesn’t mean I’m not willing and try to help with yours. I love listening.
i like helping people and i can't wait to travel.

most of the things i do have a reason behind them.
Like why i don't sleep, why i turn around, why I'm not good with my own emotion and keep to myself. i guess everyones got there own story.
I guess you'll have to get to know me better if you want to know mine.

Music, writing and drawing are a pre big deal to me,
along with the obvious friends, late nights and fun times.
music - i'll honestly listen to anything. hardcore, acoustic and aussie hip-hop are the favs but.
writing - writing is exploration; and most of the time, I'm surprised where the journey takes me.
drawing - jst seems to let my mind escape. as pathetic as it sounds, its true.

To sum this up, I’m always happy.
I do a lot of stupid stuff. Like walking into doors and shit like that un-intentionally.
I'm about as unco as it gets and i really jst like to have a good time.
I never really make much sense,
as you could probably tell
Um, byee? (:

Ohh btw - thats exciting,
ily blogger ahaahha.